During this journey, as the baselines are erased and lowered as quickly as they can be drawn, I have redefined "fine" several times and now have reached a point of confusion.
How am I really doing?I have just spent a few days in the hospital in response to worsening symptoms of heart failure. I was started and sent home on a continuous IV of a medication that will help my heart beat stronger while the wait continues. This medication has several side effects and can be a panacea or a poison. It has caused me to become very aware of "how I am feeling" at all times. The symptoms have become mixed between side-effect and symptom. Add anxiety to the mix and I have real trouble with that question. I guess the best I can do for now is repeat what my father has said hundreds of times in response to that question.
"I got out of bed this morning"
Be good to each other,